29
I had to close at work, which didn't seem so bad at the time until everyone at work got stupid so then I had a horrible night. EB took me to Five Guy's at 11pm. GM brought me brownies!
28
RF, DB, JY and I went to sushi, which was fun, and then when they dropped me off it was raining and the road was blocked off and I ended up walking home in the rain and dark. I got home and got in bed because I was so cold and got the flu the next day.
27
I was moving to California in 2 weeks so Mom came out from Montana and we went to the coast with RF, DB, AA, and EBa. It was awesome. Went on a hike, crabbing, and walked on the beach a lot.
26
Went to Manzana with RF and AA and then went to Vegas the next day with AE and JY. It was fun-ish. I won some money, but was also the drunkest I've ever been. Went to an improv show, fun. Spent the morning hungover, not fun.
25
RF and DB took me to San Juan Island, Washington. We camped and went kayaking and saw a billion Orcas. One of the best weekends of my life.
24
RO, RF, KT and a bunch of other people took me out. Dinner at Manzana, bars, strip club. I'm pretty sure this is the first time I hung out with AA. Then CJ came down from Seattle for the weekend.
23
First birthday in Portland. I don't know what I did, where I went or what I ate. I'm pretty sure this was my first birthday at Manzana.
22
Last birthday celebrated at Linfield. EB and KT planned a scavenger hunt and that was fun. Dinner with friends.
21
Went to Montana right after 9/11 attacks. Mom was in hospital. Went out at 10pm on 9/15 and drank until midnight when I said "Whoo hoo! I'm 21!" Bartender was not happy. Also, BH stepped on my flip-flop and it broke so I went to a few bars with no shoes.
20
Went to Lincoln City with RO, CJ, and KT. Had dinner and then ran around with my friends on the beach in the rain.
19
First birthday away from Mom. I'm sure I spent it with KT and RO but not really sure what we did. My birthday is sandwiched in between KT's and RO's, so its a blur.
18
I was in Billings accepting an award for Montana Healthcare Association Volunteer of the Year.
17
Hmmm...
16
I went to a football game (Go Yellowjackets!) And I got a new sleeping bag.
And now we have come to the end of my memory. I really cannot think of where I was or what I may have been doing.
I'm sure I was with my mom. There were gifts. Probably cake and ice cream with CH, PH, RH and my brothers. My mom probably made lasagna or enchiladas.
But I can't picture a single thing.
As I was sitting here trying to figure out what I may have done on my birthday, age 1-15, I realized that I didn't appreciate the things my mom did for us while she was doing them.
I know that I now reflect on how awesome Mom is, but at the time it didn't click. All of the sacrifices, all the money she spent. Managing school and then work with the extracurricular activities of three kids.
And always making our birthdays special. Making whatever we wanted for dinner, having friends and family over. Every good memory I have before age 15 involves my mom.
I can still remember walking in the back door and feeling the heat and smell of dinner hitting my face. Of her asking how my day was. Of her bringing us treats and giving us gifts even on Valentine's Day.
Why is it that as a child we look for our mother's love in the things she gives us, but as an adult we just want the words and actions?
I am thankful to have a mom who has loved me best these past 30 years and I hope I do her proud.
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